Crafting Change

Crafting Change

Sometimes trying to change anything at all feels like howling in the wind.

We try to reach out and create change in our lives, and we feel like we are in the dark.

We try to take a step forward, and it feels like our feel are stuck in stone.

When we try to  make a change, sometimes we feel like we are just a shadow of our former selves.

We seek illumination, guidance, direction, support, but what we find may seem faint, and not enough to light our way.

Our fears  loom like shadows, seeming to quadruple in size.

We spiral down into our core, hoping that there, might be an answer.

We seek wholeness: may the circle be unbroken.

This when we can’t even always see where we are going.  (“The bear went over the mountain…and found…another mountain- yikes!”)

We find out change is a process. Step by step, little piece by little piece, stitched together, small efforts, trying again, two steps forward, one step back.

A patient putting together of parts. A heaping up of nuggets.

DON’T

the process.

We seek the

at the end of the pot of gold…once we learn it is not actually vice versa.

We work at it. In innumerable ways, we push through stone. We learn, we grow, we apply techniques, we make efforts, we try again, we set strategies in place. We keep going. We keep growing.  It takes work.  Sometimes we can’t have the radio on while we are doing it.

We may find that we are finally able to bloom a bit, knowing that light can be dappled, and light and shadow are intrinsically entwined.

We allow ourselves that moment of glee, of joy.  We raise our hands in exultation, we stretch our hands to the heavens, we laugh.

We keep going.